Admiration

I would like to say something about grace. Specifically, grace under fire.  Specifically, Judge Amy Coney Barrett’s behavior during the senate judiciary committee confirmation hearings. 

I have been listening and watching for the last two days. She has been asked hundreds of times to opine, affirm, or deny a position she may or may not have on cases that are currently, or may be in the future before the Supreme court. She is ethical to the highest degree in that she will not do that.  What galls me is that not one of the democrats in the committee is listening to her answers. They ask her basically the same thing over and over and over. Its insulting how they are trying to trap her. She has been talked over, her integrity questioned, her beliefs questioned, and so on. And through it all, she is respectable, congenial, attentive, direct and succinct.

I do not care if you are a democrat or a republican, (notice I do not believe either of those should be capitalized!!!), but I think you have to admire her graceful and respectful answers anyway. She is a smart, articulate, highly intelligent, and strong woman who I admire greatly. And I did not even know her before these proceedings.

I am not trying to start a war with my comments, and I still really do not care which ‘side’ you are on. I am only commenting about one individual and her incredible grace under fire.

I am proud to be a woman today. 😊

Updates

It has been such a very long time since I blogged here. I know, I say this every time I haven’t written in the blog for a while. I am keeping up with my journal though, which was a major goal of mine this year. Let’s bring you up to speed:

First, and most important, Michael was diagnosed with cancer in February and had surgery to remove the cancer on March 16th at Johns Hopkins in Baltimore. He spent several days in hospital. It was a painful procedure, and difficult recovery but he’s cancer free now at six months. The day of his surgery the city of Baltimore shut down due to the virus and overnight the streets were empty. So when I got back to the hotel after being with Michael during the day, my sister and I would walk the empty streets and gaze in the closed windows of Fells Point. It was surreal but the lack of hustle and bustle was a balm to my nerves. I am forever grateful for the extraordinary care given to Michael and the help and support given to me during that time.

For a very long time I had been wearing a patch over my left eye, like a pirate – yes, because my eye had turned inward so much I couldn’t walk without running into things, falling down stairs, tripping over everything, and so on. I was scheduled for eye realignment surgery in April but the Pandemic hit so it was cancelled until the end of August. I had to say it was/is a difficult recovery. I don’t know why I thought this but I just assumed its only my eye, I’ll Be back up and running very quickly. Ummm, nope… Brutal headaches, dizziness if I move my head too quickly from side to side, not to meantion that I have feel more exhausted than I thought possible. This also coincided with an extra busy time in my virtual assisting practice, which made me want to keep working but having to push myself to take breaks. Michael said he heard my recovery could take up to a year… I swear I didn’t hear that, but its probably selective memory. At any rate it needed to be done. Again, the surgery was at Johns Hopkins and I received exemplary care – but it was a bit scary because Michael wasn’t allowed in.

My chronic pain is still with me. My doctor – the one that does the MRI guided needle placement procedures (In my abdomen) has left Johns Hopkins, and I couldn’t find another – and honestly, I don’t want to start from scratch. He’s gone to a university in NYC and I’m in touch with him. I’m praying the clinic he is starting will be up and running at some point, after it was delayed due to the pandemic. So, every few weeks I check in and see what’s up. Meanwhile, I’m in pain, some days in near screaming agony, with only Tylenol, ibuprofen, and my pain tea. Thank God for my pan tea. Because, of course, if you’re a chronic pain patient, you are apparently an addict and don’t deserve to be treated with medicine that works.

That’s where we are. We’re working to build our studio up (www.hilltop-arts.com) and my photography business (www.hilltop.photos) and my virtual assisting business is keeping me extremely busy. But all of it helps to keep me distracted from what isn’t feeling good on my body. 🙂 I promise I will try to be better about this blog!

Looking cross-eyed at the world

I am literally looking cross-eyed at the world. I’m in dire need of eye realignment surgery due to my left eye turning inward. It just got rescheduled into April. I know it was only two weeks past when the surgery was supposed to be initially, but for someone who is running into absolutely everything because the world is wonky-crazy right now, that’s a long delay.

On 1/01/2020, in the mid-afternoon, I was coming down the stairs with my left eye shut as I have to do most of the time now and opened it for an instant. In that instant, i missed a step and crashed down the last three. I didn’t tumble down, I held on but ended with all my weight on my right foot which was bent at the toes under me. So, broken toes and possible ligament damage, and a sprained ankle (The same one I keep hurting because it hasn’t been long enough to totally heal it.) Ducky. Needless to say, I was off duty for cooking over New Year’s.

I can’t wait for the reallignment surgery! Plus I love going to the surgeon’s office because its all decorated with kids in mind since most are WAY younger than I am. 🙂

New PC Growing Pains

Close-up of real life messy desk in office

Yeah! I love new computers! Ugh… New computer growing pains I can do without!

Every new computer transition has its issues, some are unavoidable, and others…

My new computer has both USB 2 and USB 3 ports. While I was setting up and blithely plugging peripherals into ports, it didn’t dawn on me to be careful where I plugged stuff in. Because apparently, some things aren’t compatible with USB 3. I thought all USB 3 ports were backward compatible, but I guess I was wrong…

Like my marble mouse… It’s not working anymore. On any of my computers. And my headset system. It still works with the desk phone, but will not plug into any of my computers. I’ve changed cords, reset devices where I can, but it still won’t work on USB.

Not even sure what exactly did happen, but it did. Crazy, but I’m getting through.

UPDATE: It wasn’t the USB ports at all, it was a defective USB CD/DVD drive! It caused damage and headaches, but it’s all fixed now. The company where I purchased it replaced it and the marble mice, but not the headset, although they did give me a discount.

Opioid Crisis Hits Home

The medications I was on made it imperative that I not be left alone. But this is what I’ll be forced to go back to now that the government has stepped in and told my doctor how to treat me. It’s not fair, and I’m really angry about it. But, there is only one thing I can do, and that is to stop taking the medications. I shouldn’t be forced to, but I’m very tired of being pigeon-holed into the drug addict category and having to justify why I should be on them. [caption id="attachment_55229" align="alignright" width="300"] Researching Tea[/caption]   I’m an herbalist!  I can and WILL find an alternative that is better for me and has no harsh side effects. I’ve already started researching and experimenting.

And please, before you start talking to me about using marijuana, just don’t. I don’t want to be rude, but, I’m not about to start using something the federal government considers illegal. I’m not about to lose my 2nd Amendment Rights just for using an illegal substance. It’s a whole argument I’m not going into here, just understand that it’s my choice and this is how I feel.  I am currently looking at the CBD oils and salves though.
The first round of testing is underway and showing promising results! Already, after a cup of tea, my pain level is drastically reduced. So, I’m really hoping I’ll be able to find effective pain relief and kiss prescription pain meds goodbye. [caption id="attachment_55228" align="alignleft" width="300"] Tea Trials[/caption]]]>